I've been very touched this week by the bravery and kindness of the blogging community. I've read several posts where people I count as friends, despite never having met them, have written eloquently and honestly about elements of their lives that have proved tough recently and I have been struck by the enormity of the goodwill and support that exists among bloggers. It kind of bucks trends, don't you think?
I am fortunate- I don't usually suffer with Hard Days, but I've been away from home all day today and it has ended up being quite a tough day, which is unusual for me. It struck me how important the blogs I read and all of you who read my blog and leave comments on it have become to me when I realised that, apart from being at home with the dogs and my family (note the order there :o)), the thing I was most looking forward to in terms of knowing it would cheer me up was checking in with all of you and catching up on what you've all been up to. I knew you'd distract me and put back some much-needed perspective.
Right at this moment I have open on my browser and waiting to be read once I've finished writing this: John's exploits at Of Brambles & Bears, Caroline's Ragged Robin, Dave's Northsider Dave, CJ's Above The River, Mandy's Chateau Moorhen (and believe me, my dear, I feel particularly pathetic moaning about my day after all you've been stoically enduring these past few months), Jo's A Whole Plot Of Love and Amy's Love Made My Home.
Do any of you feel less important and less like friends because we don't meet and exchange news in person? Nope.
I am lucky - these days I don't often suffer from hard days, the sort of day that leaves you feeling wrung out and weary. I prefer by far to be positive and up beat, but every now and then I guess we all get days that floor us and leave us feeling Fed Up.
My digestion has played me up today. I've had to spend the day sitting down and that really isn't any good for me; everything gets tied in knots and it becomes painful no matter how saintly I am in terms of the foods I choose to eat. The only remedy for that is wine, which numbs the stomach nerves. I'd rather do this than swallow pills. Only M and I decided we'd not drink mid-week and so I am cross that I've needed to.
On normal active days, the sort of days I would chose if left entirely to myself, I know what my body needs to be healthy and happy, and as a result it all works, but on sitting down days it all unravels and I am beginning to think the only way to beat it is to have a fast day on days when I am required to be sedentary. I'm feeling just a wee bit fed up about that.
That was one element of my Difficult Day. Another is that L has been using a computer to do his school work on for the last few months because, in common with many children who are very young for their year (L is a very late August birthday) his handwriting isn't always great. We have just realised that the tablet we got for him last autumn for school isn't working out and as a result I am feeling frustrated that I have let him down on that score and wasted money to boot and that the school are - for once - taking their sweet time about replying to my email about it. I should have trusted my instincts at the time and got him a notebook computer instead, which I expect we will end up needing to get now anyway. I hate waste and I am feeling irritable and frustrated because of it and because I know I made the mistake in the first place :o(
The third thing is something I can't write about in any detail because it isn't my tale to tell, but it is preying on my mind and adding to the general toughness of the day. I don't mean to sound enigmatic and perhaps I shouldn't have mentioned it at all, but there you go, it's part of what's made this day Tough so I feel I need to acknowledge it in a round about way.
Goodness! You don't usually get this from me I know and I apologise for the uncharacteristically gloomy, bordering-on-self-pitying post. Tomorrow I am off for a day watching water birds by the sea which I am sure will Quite Restore Me and Thursday you will doubtless get a more in-keeping cheerful post full of Interesting Birds and other Outdoors Things, not to mention updates on the various Sewing projects I have on the go with Phyllis as well as the result of the Smartie Competition (which I have not forgotten :o) ). I will also have had a day of eating normally which I am Quite Sure will have restored my spirits no end.
In the mean time, I hope you are all keeping well and keeping cheerful and sorry for the whinge.